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Location: California, United States
Birthday: 9/23/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: writing, listening to music, talking on the phone, hanging out with friends
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
4/5/2002
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| First he took my car. Then my iPod. And then put a new stereo system in "my" car for "us" and now hes listening to rap music again. I'm really irritated at the whole thing. It feels like he's reverting to his old ways. Making decisions without me. Telling me we need to communicate more but not talking to me. It's like 2 people living together with 2 lives. Sharing a bed with a roommate. With a baby. I dunno. Just feels like I'm not involved in his life outside home, which is at least 90% of his life if not more. In other news. My baby and I are sick. She's got a stuffy nose and a cough. I have a stuff nose and a sore throat. And my best friend lost her baby yesterday. She was 9 weeks pregnant. She and her husband are very sad. So am I. And there's nothing I can do to help her. | | |
| Kailyn will be 6 months old on Thursday! St Patty's day. Still waiting for that ring. I found one i really like...but then we got in an argument and he said maybe we should wait. So im anxious. | | |
| Mark started school on Monday and his schedule sucks. So I work 7am-5:30 pm M-Th. His schedule is work 9am-3:30pm. Then he comes home changes his clothes, and then leaves and drives an hr and a half to school. Gets there around 5:30. Has class from 7:15pm to midnight. Then drives the hour and a half or so home. He's in bed by 2 am. So far Mondays and Thurs I see him for a total of 30 mins. Tues and Wed we work together so i can see him from 9-3:30 in a work enviroment which is better than nothing but it sucks. Fridays I dont work so he will go to work at 9am, come home for lunch at either 1 or 3 and spend 30 mins with him for the day and then when hes off work hes off to school. its totally lame. Doc appointment tomorrow...I hope everythings good. i havent felt the baby move a lot in the last couple days but it probably doesnt mean anything. maybe ill ask. i dont know if mark will be able to go with me to the appointment which sucks...i want him there and hes been to all but one apointment so far. 23 weeks 2 days...or if i go by my last appoinment he said i was exactly 19 weeks which would make me exactly 23 weeks tomorrow. whatever...babies dont care about due dates. im excited and so nervous about having a baby. labor and the hospital and having all these ppl around. on my own i think ill be ok its just trying to figure it out with all these ppl around. plus life is gonna change so much..i miss mark when i dont get to spend personal time with him...like even when we go somewhere with other people i need time with just him and with a baby the time will be limited. plus im worried about him not being there for labor cause he'll be an hr and a half away in school and then he'll have to go back to school...he can take time off and redo a class but if he does it will extend his school by a month and i dont want that i want him to get done so he can get his certificates and then get a good job. he talked yesterday about having to move for a job possibly and then asked me if i would do that. of course i want to stay here but not alone..id go where he wanted to ask long as it was the best thing for us. anyway....i worry about a lot of stuff...and its harder now that hes gone all the time. i miss him. we might go shotgun wedding in vegas before the baby comes...if i can plan it out. just us 2..nothing fancy. | | |
| Wow I haven't updated yet this year. Hm...lot's of new stuff going on here...the most important of which is already known. I guess I didn't want to talk about it on here yet. But, tomorrow I will be 4 months pregnant. Went to the doc on friday...she said everything sounds good. We heard the heartbeat again...we heard it for the first time I think around week 10. We really wanted an ultrasound but at least we heard the heartbeat so we know the baby sounds ok. I know what people mean now when they say they can't wait to go and see their baby because in between each US they don't know if everythings ok. I mean, I can't feel the baby and my stomach may have grown a little but that's the only symptom of pregnancy that i've had. Well that and not having my monthly thing. That's the nice part. lol. So next appointment on April 23 we can find out the gender. I want to wait...but Mark is conflicted...he doesn't know if he wants to know or not. So I keep asking and i'm waiting for him to figure out what he wants. Either way would be ok I guess...but I think it would be fun to find out when the baby is born. Anyway............that's all i'm gonna say for now. Got other stuff going on but I have to get some work done so i'm not gonna talk about it right now. I hope everything is good with you....leave me a comment if you're ever on here............bye! | | |
| Mark and I went to Denny's for breakfast on Friday. He took my straw wrapper and twisted it around and made a loop. And then he asked me to marry him. It was all for fun, he didn't really ask, but i didn't know how to react. He stuck it on my finger and everything. I know i'm lame, but in my head it's a sensitive subject, to me. Meaning, i'm ready for us to get engaged, but I know theres a whole list of stuff Mark wants to get in line before he even asks me and im starting to wonder if he's still thinking about it. Thinking about it seriously. He joked that we arent getting married. Maybe he's just trying to throw me off. But i'm a woman, that's almost 30, that has been living with her bf for almost 2 yrs, and I want to know if we're getting closer to marriage, even if it still is a couple yrs off. | | |
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